{"id":359813,"date":"2017-02-06T14:17:11","date_gmt":"2017-02-06T20:17:11","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/atxcatholic.com\/?p=359813"},"modified":"2017-02-14T15:07:47","modified_gmt":"2017-02-14T21:07:47","slug":"a-prayer-during-darkness","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/atxcatholic.com\/index.php\/2017\/02\/a-prayer-during-darkness\/","title":{"rendered":"A Prayer during Darkness"},"content":{"rendered":"

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This is a poem that I wrote one day when I felt as though I was in darkness. \u00a0It has helped me to pray with it when my prayer feels dry.<\/p>\n

Darkness <\/b><\/p>\n

Darkness!<\/span><\/p>\n

The light of the flame that brought me here now begins to dull and I feel lost<\/span><\/p>\n

My prayer was once as sweet as honey, now it feels like a tart of pure sourness<\/span><\/p>\n

How God am I to continue with you if I am but a lazy man<\/span><\/p>\n

I struggle now more than ever because it seems as though you are now silent and not speaking!<\/span><\/p>\n

What happened to our loving conversations where you would tell me how much you loved me!<\/span><\/p>\n

Have we now become so apart that you can\u2019t stand me?<\/span><\/p>\n

No, I refuse to believe that you no longer wish to see me. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I am your child, your son!<\/span><\/p>\n

Help me Father!<\/span><\/p>\n

Hear me as I yell to you for help!<\/span><\/p>\n

My light has dimmed but yet I continue.<\/span><\/p>\n

My struggles have increased yet I will go on!<\/span><\/p>\n

My cross gets heavier, yet I will carry on!<\/span><\/p>\n

My words are scarce yet I will pray!<\/span><\/p>\n

Father, my Father!<\/span><\/p>\n

Do with me what you must yet give me the ability to always pray and fight temptation and the strength to withstand!<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

This is a poem that I wrote one day when I felt as though I was in darkness. \u00a0It has helped me to pray with it when my prayer feels dry. Darkness Darkness! 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