“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you” Jeremiah 1:5
I take a lot of comfort in the above line from Jeremiah because not only do I have two wonderful girls that the Lord has blessed me with and charged me to care for. I also have my own personal cheering section in heaven who are watching over me and praying for me. Let me explain, over the past six years or so we’ve experienced a number of miscarriages as we’ve tried to be open to God’s plan for our family. While each one of these has been a painful experience they’ve also been a lesson in surrendering to God’s will.
I will often include in my night prayers, a prayer to God for his will to be done. I do this during the good times, because I know without God there would be no good times. I also do it as a reminder, so that when the bad times come I know that His will will guide us.
People have asked me, “Does it make you angry”? My typical response is, “at first yes”, but I also know that God know better then I do and if He saw fit to only give us these children for a short time. Then I have to trust that he knows best. It does give me a bit more incentive to get to heaven though. Not that spending eternity in the beatific vision isn’t enough, cause it is. With that being said, the only things I want to hear after the Father tells me, “Well done, my good and faithful servant…” is
“Hi, Dad…”